I am the most beautiful and pleasant young lady in the entire town. So beautiful, attractive, radiant, full of life and energy. how do I know, because I am the joy of my mother, the pride of my father, and the desire of men. Even beauty couldn’t resist me. Whenever I walk, heads not only turn, emotions tingle.
I was on my way to the Chapel on a Sunday morning, when I met my half brother also on his way to the chapel.
Ammon: Tamar darling! How are you doing. So good to see you. Looking sweet and beautiful as always
Thank you Brother, I replied smiling sheepishly
(He gave me a hug and a peck)
The kind of hug he gave me, was too intimate and illicit. But I never read any meaning to it. Just like we do today. For every intimate closeness, try to find out what the undertone is. You can! You are a lady! Trust me, you can if you listen well, you will hear it loudly.
Can I walk with you to the Chapel? He asked with so much emotions in his tone.
Yeah! Why not.
After all, he is my brother, I thought
As we walk into the chapel, heads turned as they look at my pinky flowing Princess gown with a fuscia fascinator matching with my high eel stony sandal. Walking gallantly in the hall, I made my way to the front roll. As a Princess, walking in with a Prince, we both sat at the front row beside Dad and Mum.
During the service, guys were winking at me, but Ammon’s eyes caught them first and before I knew what’s going on, they took their gaze away. Feeling defended, I would smile at him.
When the service was over, Ammon said to me: “thank you for making me feel like a man” I was amazed at such compliment. But, all I did was smile and replied, “You are welcome”
It’s like Ammon was dotting me, almost every where I go, he’s always there and most cases to save me from guys’ harassment. I felt defended any time he is around. I rarely have male friends. In short, I don’t have.
We grew fond of each other and before long, it was hard for me to walk alone without my guiding angel, Ammon.
I would send my aid to his house to inform him the time I would be going out, at times give him a call.
We would gist and gist.
I was in the midst of my friends when my father sent for me to inform me Ammon was sick and that I should go and check on him and also cook for him.
Been that I’ve been used to him and the fact that I have to obey my father, also, I dont mind spending some time with him in his house. I quickly put on my Princess apparel and ran to his house. When I got there, he was shaking on the bed. And with so much compassion, I prepared a hot tea for him. Gave him to drink and quickly prepare some cake as well. He requested I serve him in his room, which was where he was lying down. At the same time, he sent all his aide out. As I gave him a piece of cake, he took it ate it and profess how delicious and satisfying it is. touching me passionately, I felt uncomfortable by the touch, but trusted that he’s my brother. I was so glad he loved the cake. I managed to give a sheepish laugh. As I was about giving him the second piece, he grabbed my hand and request that I have sex with him…I couldn’t believe my ears. I reminded him, it’s me, his half sister who he always protect from guys harassment. He was touching me in the most sensitive parts of my body. And because it’s just the two of us in the room, I knew the chances of getting away is low. I told him, it’s fine, he would have his way, but he can request from the King(our Father) that I should marry him, by doing it the right way, at least he should allow Dad to hand me over to him in the right manner. I learnt that you don’t negotiate with sin.
He was too moved by lust, he wouldn’t listen to me…then, he raped me. I couldn’t even struggle.
I was so bitter and heartbroken.
When he had a feel of me and satisfy himself, he asked that his servant to throw me out. I felt bad and told him, this act of sending me away in this shameful way is more disgraceful than the act of rape itself.
…What do you think I did wrong?
Mistake 1: I could feel And even saw that something was not right, yet, I kept quiet. I was so ”intelligently dull”. He saw I was naïve, took advantage of me and messed up my life. I could have had it better if I had been able to read between the lines.
If I wasn’t craving and enjoying protection from a wolf, I should have been more sensitive.
Don’t ever be like me. If a man is getting close to you, understand his intentions. Don’t be a fool. If you find it hard to find out, ask the Holy Spirit, that is why He is in you, to teach you all things and bring things to your knowledge. John 14:26 says But the Comforter, which is the Holy Ghost, whom the Father will send in my name, he shall teach you all things
Mistake 2: I trusted the wrong person and fell on the wrong side, shattered and broken into pieces beyond repairs. But, God can fix me, can’t He?
If a man is a pretender and not a Christian, but trying to get you or trap you, you will know, you will sense it. And you should know an unbeliever cannot be trusted. Do not fall in love with an unbeliever, it is a dangerous zone, it is fire! The bible makes it clear in II Corinthians 6:14; “Be ye not unequally yoked together with unbelievers: for what fellowship hath righteousness with unrighteousness? and what communion hath light with darkness.”
Aside been careful who you move with, also mind the way you dress. You are a prince/princess, dress as such
Mistake 3: I was confident in my beauty and let down my guard. I didn’t even hear the warnings of the Holy Spirit when he was telling me he is not someone I can trust. Holy Spirit, please forgive me and help me.
You are a beautiful girl, I know that, do not let it get into your head like I allowed mine to. God gives the beauty, so don’t let it be a source of sorrow to you, because God’s gift is good and perfect. Every good gift and every perfect gift is from above, and cometh down from the Father of lights, with whom is no variableness, neither shadow of turning. James 1:17
Learn from me, I am a broken Princess, but my story can help you.
When you perceive or feel that something is not right with someone’s kindness or closeness, please keep off, RUN! Even before you pray. Most cases, when you create that gap, it help you to be emotionally stable and spiritually alert to pray and receive God’s instructions. You are young and this can be the King’s meat that you should not eat. When you sense something is wrong, react against it, he will get the signal. If he doesn’t, its time to say good bye.
Let me tell you somethings:
1. As a male, mind who you move with. Ammon moves with a wrong friend that adviced him to sign his death warrant. Ammon died as a result of what he did to me. But where is his friend Jonadab, enjoying his life. Mind who you walk with. Move with spirit filled teen and young adults who are on fire for God.
2. Four people became friends because they have a common purpose. They stood for God and succeeded together. Daniel, Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego made God’s name popular in a strange land. Make God’s name popular any where you are.
3. Every male is a priest and every child of God is an ambassador, you are a Joshua and you are an Elisha, you are an apostle…let your Joshua work with a Moses, let your Elisha walk with an Elijah. There’s a fire brand elder/leader who can walk you into your destiny. Find them, maintain your relationship with them. Do not be a loner!
If a man is trying to touch your private parts or a woman ask you to touch their private parts, such is someone to expose and run away from. Sin strives in secrecy. Do not be quiet.
May the Lord heal every soul going through difficult times in Jesus name.
The king’s meat can be deadly, it can cause cancer, it can cause unwanted pregnancy, it can cause destruction of destiny. This King’s meat is a life of sin; this can be in diverse ways; your relationship with ungodly friends, unholy relationship with the opposite sex, living large and walking in sin, disobedient to the laws of God. Daniel,Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego decided not to spoil themselves with the king’s meat. The affluence of the land, yet, they came out as the best, and most well nourished. Even when they were thrown into fire, God was waiting for them there, and what was supposed to burn them became air conditioner.
Remember Dinah, who went to greet the daughters of the land, and got raped. Avoid unnecessary closeness with people who can cause you to sin, let God choose your friends for you. Why? Because you are a Prince/Princess, you have been bought with a price and you belong to a glorious and wonderful Kingdom. Walk in the light of God.
The second thing you need to do when you perceive you are under unnecessary pressure or sensing something might be wrong, talk to someone, do not suffer in silence and don’t take anything for granted. If there is no one around you, send a mail to [email protected], we will respond to you.
Lastly, Always PRAY. Pray to live holy, pure and to shine God’s light in this dark world and also pray against RAPE! A raped Princess is no more a virgin, stay pure, stay virgin till you are married, even after marriage stay virgin to your husband alone and God will be proud of you, likewise I.
In summary, as princes and princesses of the most High God, it is forbidden to engage in sexual practices before marriage. It is forbidden to make close friends with unbelievers or walk in their ways, Psalm 1. It is forbidden to walk and be comfortable in sin. Galatians 5:19
God bless you!
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